Not right now anyway. you see, Macy tagged me, and I cant seem to copy and paste it properly. I was going to do it, and I will. I AM LETTING YOU KNOW.
My cousin has a boyfriend. Well shes not really a cousin. Shes my cousins daughter, which would make her my niece. She's the same age as I am, only 20 years days older, so its easier to call her cousin. Anyway, she has a boyfriend. They met over an online game I heard, maybe WOW, or I heard it was Ragnarok or something. I don't know. He's not actually in the same country as her, so I suppose its a "long-distance relationship". I didn't hear from her that she had a brand spankin' new BF either. I thought us two, I though we were tight. But I guess when she moved to California and abandonededed me she didn't feel the need to be buddies anymore. Always playing that damn Ragnarok.
hahaha.
I had a reason for this post, I swear.
Just bear with me here folks.
So my point is that her mama and grandparents are strict also. You know, typical Filipino parents. So I wonder how she can be so bad ass like that. I don't even begin to think how I could ever do that. I WANT TO. I want to stop being such a square and defy something for once. I mean, shit, I'm doing everything my parents way and they still aren't happy with me.
Why the fuck listen to them now right?
They keep me at home.
Either say no or make me feel guilty if I even ask to go out with friends or go to a party or anything like that.
I'm so used to it I don't even ask them any more. I don't ask if I can go see a movie with some buddies, a movie that I really want to watch, like Coraline. I have to make up excuses to not go to a quinceneara beforehand. I cant even give a mate my home phone number, too scared that someone other than me would answer that phone and bomb me with questions and yell at me for nothing.
My point, now that I've remembered it, is why can't I walk out of the house and ask a friend to pick me up so we can hang out?
Why can't I call my friend to talk to her about pointless shit I don't really care about?
Why can't I have a boyfriend I lie to my parents about, hold hand with in the hallway and make-out with in between class periods?
Why can't I suck it up.
HELP ME.
I'm going to lose this shit I swear.
ina