Do self-destructive tendencies overcome eventually?

I can't help but notice how many times I use I in a post. Or just, in every day conversation actually. Is there a workshop, do you think, to help one to stop using that word? Is it even so bad to keep using that word? Do you think there is some sort of existential event that will be put in place for you if you go a certain amount of time without using the word I? Anyway, if there ever was, I would never be rewarded with it. I am all I think about. I am all I know. I am all I care about. Every thought in my head is I. And rightfully so. I'm torn between feeling resentment for this narcissism or stupidity for thinking it is narcissism. There can't be any truly selfless people in the world. Now proceeding to continue writing the rest of this post while refraining from using that silly vowel.

Trying to make this blog look pretty. Wondering if anyone has read it since it has been resurrected. Doubt it, highly. Not too many people know about it anyhow, even when it was used actively. Then again, the owner didn't have as much of an internet present as she does now. But also, then again, her internet presence isn't really that impressive right now either. Does talking in the third person count? Shouldn't matter, it's fun. It's a little past midnight already, should have been asleep 30 minutes ago. But avoiding time alone to think by sitting on the toilet with the laptop is much more fun and much easier. She likes to sleep but she never likes the hour before it.

Goodnight

here is her escape, sans the pile of clothes usually enveloping it

and here is what she sees in the harmless morning, except without her contacts on, it is nowhere near as  magical