I seem to get my best studying in when it's after midnight and everyone is asleep. After midnight I find that my thoughts have mostly quieted down and I'm not as splenetic as I am during the day. I have a couple of friends around the world in their respective time zones I can carry on a minimal, mellow conversation through the night so I don't feel completely alone. I'll feel very down sometimes but not too much because it is late and I need to get my studying done so I can sleep. 12 AM - 2 AM is the best time for me.
After a few days of unnecessarily having to think about it, I went to see an advisor about my schedule next semester. She had the rest of my classes mapped out for me and it was a relief and it was a start. If I pass the classes I am having trouble with now I only have 2 semesters until I can apply to the BSN program. It's unbelievable to think because I don't even feel like I'm ready for it because I haven't been ready this whole time I've been in University. I told my friend that I was a little scared thinking about it because I won't even know how to begin acting like an adult for another 5 years, at least and he said, "You won't be an adult, you'll just be a kid making lots of money." That honestly made me feel a lot better about it. I'll be a kid that worked hard and gets to play and do what she wants. If she works hard enough.
Anthony is sitting 2 computers down from me and I was thinking a few nights ago that the thing that annoys me most about him is that it seems he never seems to be genuinely upset about anything so much so that it seems like he doesn't live real life. That makes no sense. I'm annoyed with my friend for being happy and content with everything because he already has everything he needs. He has friends, he has a lovely family, he has money and I get annoyed with him because he can't sympathize with me. It's always "life is good" "cheer up!" "well I'm sure it's not a big deal." He doesn't make good jokes either. I love him but he doesn't make good jokes. I can always depend on Garrison for the most natural conversations.
I wrote a letter to my parents about seeing John on Tuesday and now it's Thursday and I need to get it to them. KAYAK gave me an alert that tickets have gone down in price by $7. That's $7 I can spend on Chipotle.
Anyway, it's my last day of work on Saturday, thank GOD. I'm going to go to Smith's after school and buy ingredients for cupcakes and then I will have something to do tonight. Also I need to buy my tickets to see the Yeah Yeah Yeahs but I still haven't gotten around to it because I still don't havea plan of how I'm going to get there. How am I going to get there?