So, today at Track Practice I was very, very upset. 'Cause of things my papa said.
So upset in fact, that I cried.
But, I was okay. They all wanted to make me feel better.
All asked why I was so upset. Wanted me to stop crying
All the throwers, and the football players, they even threatened to pound my dad.
Now, that kinda-sorta made me laugh.
haha
It was stupid, I didn't even know I would start crying, but then I just did.
And K, he was there, sitting beside me, he could tell something was up. And when I started crying for no apparent reason, to them, he just hugged me and told me it'd be okay.
Didn't care that I got his shirt all wet.
I calmed down a bit, them boys that don't like to see girls cry freaked out and tried to make me laugh.
So, I laughed, didnt want to make a stupid egg of myself.
I was okay, I thought I was. So we had to do our 2 lap warm-up and I ran with K.
He asked me what was going on, I kinda didn't want to talk about it but I thought it would make me feel better if I did.
So I told him. I told him "Its just, my papa, he's just so frustrating, you know? He's being a real dick and yelling at me and fucking taking it out on me just 'cause hes in a pissy mood. And I hate that he tells me that Im selfish! He saying shit like what are you even doing track for? You got stuff to do at home, you got a brother to look after. And it just frustrates me 'cause I fucking do everything for them! This is the only thing I do for myself, and Im fucking good at it. I hate that he calls me selfish!"
By this point I was pretty much freaking out, and I could tell and he could tell that I was about to start crying again so he just stopped jogging and pulled me towards him and just hugged me and then I just cried and got his shirt all wet again.
He just kinda held me there until I calmed down again and pulled away from him.
Then I just laughed and apologized and asked if it was obvious that I was just crying.
He cracked some jokes, I cheered up a bit. And yeah.
The End.
We got a big Track meet tomorrow and on Saturday. A shitload of schools will be there. From California, and Texas, and even from Australia. Thats what Coach Price said.
He keeps putting it out there that he wants me to break the sophomore girls record for the 100m. Which is 12.5.
I already ran a 12.9
Whats .04 seconds less right?
Anywho, Im not letting Coach get to me. He's a pretty snazzy guy. Fucking put me in the 400m. I almost went off on him.
Was like "WHAT THE FUUUUCK COACH! You know I dont like the 400! FUCK"
And he was like "Hey, I put you in there 'cause I believe that you can do it. You can do the 400 in under a minute easy. Those other girls? They got jackshit compared to you, you're just too scared. I wouldnt put you in there if I didnt think you could do it"
And I just kinda looked at him like, really Coach? REALLY? you're giving me this shit?
And he just shrugged his shoulders like hey. I BELIEVE.
Well, easy for you to say, you aint running.
lolz.
Okay, thats it.
Pray for me,
ina